"I just got off the phone with my mother and am still crying. I'm probably getting B's and C's in most of my classes. My throat feels so tight, and I'm wondering, how can we ever support each other when so many of us are too tight to move? How can we make sure that we don't die of heart attacks at 50? If this is what ambition does to me, I don't think I want to be ambitious anymore. I'm paying to be here, and I'm not paying for anxiety. I'm not paying to be pressured into giving every second of my day to deserve to be in CBS. I really wonder if CBS has space for my failure. I've realized that the worst person you can compete with is yourself, it's just cruel. For everyone reading this, I hope you protect yourself and your light. You deserve to treat yourself better. Let's all sleep on time tonight."
About the Author: "I am a dancer at heart. I cook really well, soups are a favorite. I am a good listener. I've painted the walls of my room and they look beautiful."
Humans of CBS
Humans of CBS is a platform for those wishing to share their mental health story, thoughts, or experiences with others in CBS. We hope that this series will give visibility to these issues, let students know they are not alone, and provide mental health resources for students on campus. Posts can be submitted either anonymously or named at z.umn.edu/HumansofCBS2018